Tuesday, January 13, 2015

Jealousy and Doubt

It suddenly hit me like a ton of bricks and washed over me like standing under a waterfall and there was nothing I could do to stop it.

Jealousy 

Why is this happening to her and not me? My heart was tied to the string of a yo-yo. Back and forth it swayed. Happiness for my dear friend who had just announced she was engaged to swinging over to jealousy and doubt.

Doubt

Is something wrong with me? Why am I the only one who seems to still be single in a 20 foot radius of my group of friends.

Have you ever been riding along the journey of your life happy and free. Enjoying the season you're in and BAM!! Jealousy and doubt pop out of no where. 

Maybe it's when someone loses another 10 lbs and when you look in the mirror all you feel is that you found those 10 lbs. When a co-worker receives recognition for the work and effort you also do but has seemed to have been overlooked. Maybe it's another woman who has announced she's expecting and the loss of your unborn child or emptiness of not being able to conceive is still very raw.

Jealousy and doubt seem to go hand in hand. We want something someone else has and we start to doubt our worth, story, and God.

Three things I'm learning to do when those 
two words try to surface:

1. Recognize and admit: 
The hardest part is admitting to yourself that you're feeling jealous and doubt. Especially doubting God. What I'm learning is you can't move forward until you deal and process your feelings.

2. Find that friend:
One you trust to share what your dealing with. Be honest. They will understand and be able to be a listener as you process out loud your feelings.

3. Everyone needs an outlet:
Maybe it's running, painting, or something you enjoy. 
Writing has become a tool for me to get my thoughts on paper and reflect on things I'm learning. Find your outlet.



Jealousy and doubt are easy targets that will distract us from God's love and His plan for 
us. Let's help fight together to protect our hearts and stories.


 Please watch this video and near the end, allow John Piper encourage you!  
"Therefore, do not lose heart!"

Shane and Shane "Though You Slay Me"








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